Questions

(Quotes from Ed in Red)

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Not a Gambler

see previous

Mr. Seykota,

I know those $5000 do not mean much to you. You probably use it to filter out people who really need your help as you must be getting hundreds of calls and e-mail’s from people like me.

Anyway, sir, you know most of my issues. You can put it on FAQ.

I will do whatever it takes to experience life in a joyous way. I am not a blind gambler if not I would not have survived for this long.

I also think I have a method to trade which suits my temperament.

You know I have actually not lost that much trading.

It was the way my debt was structured which always weighed me down.

You know how your ability to think diminishes when a sword is hanging over your head.

I am also being able to go short as this I think this is a bear market or at least more money will be made going short.

You might take your feelings about <debt> and <sword over your head> to Tribe.

You might also remember some important role models through your life whom you recall having a propensity to be in debt.

The Feelings of Being in Debt

may serve

to cover up the feelings

of deeper issues.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Advice on Losing Weight

Ed:

Isn't it great that there is so much advice on losing weight!

Thank you for the item.

I can think of many ways to lose weight quickly.

I am focusing on a program to increase long-term health, including gradual weight loss, while managing risk.

Rapid Weight Loss Is Possible

with liposuction,

starvation diets,

exercise marathons.

and the guillotine

Schemes to quickly

lose weight

or make money

typically carry high risk.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Magazine Cover Indicator

Ed,

Seems like the bottom. The cover looks pretty gloomy, will wait for higher prices.

PS. How are you doing with your trading book project?

Thank you for the cover.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Wants a Picture

Thank you for your encouragement.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Buying Sofa Gold

Hi Ed,

I thought you might be interested in the following link. It's not quite a magazine cover, but it is a TV "magazine show". The upbeat feature about "how to buy gold" was shown on this sofa-based lifestyle show, primetime, on the UK's main TV channel, on January 30th this year. It aired to about 6 million viewers.

Clip: http://www.bbc.co.uk/theoneshow/article/

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Singapore Tribe

Dear Ed:

Welcome

Singapore

Mon, 31 Mar 2008

Sees the Pattern

see previous

Ed,

At first I found optimism and encouragement from your post.

Then I notice my deep sadness and it hits me that all these years I was medicating my depression (and deeply rooted auto-destructive tendencies).

Every where I would go, I would carry this sign with me (HELP) and intimacy was restrained, since I would hide this sign after many meek attempts as a child. I always felt like a 2nd class citizen because of this.

I’m glad I wrote this to you, because I’ve done this before with other people, but got no feedback other than bye-bye.

I was born into a reality with a depressed mother (she even mentioned once that she surely would kill herself and the only reason she lives for is me) and a father who would do anything for her including not letting rock the boat by anyone. I recall being maybe five years old watching my mother cook in doom and gloom. I asked myself, “what’s wrong with her”? Until this day, she’s completely unaware of the severity of her sickness.

I felt guilty leaving her for even a 2 week holiday. I felt guilty having fun. My trading account, guilt again. Now, in my current state, I feel this pain quite clearly [again]. That's the reason I’m afraid of life and intimacy.

The boat you pictured and the help sign is a shadow of a cry for help from a depressed and suicidal person. I would hang that sign up to anyone who would come close – soon enough, the person was gone,

Sun, 30 Mar 2008

Randy Pausch, a Dying Man

Talks about Being Alive - on Oprah

Sun, 30 Mar 2008

Moving On: From Depression to Sexy

see previous

I have a lovely home in a beautiful setting. Two cars, two dogs. positive net worth. I have worked since I was 15 years old, my first job in a hot dog stand  ...

[Ex boyfriend] is broke, and recently had to take out a bank loan to buy a $4K used car off EBay.
 

Why would I look to him to provide anything for me? Certainly not right livelihood, he barely can pull this off himself.

My goal is to partner with someone who enjoys some of the same things such as [sporting activity].  I'd like a friend / companion who enjoys the sport as much as I do and who wants to snuggle up with the dogs at night and just enjoy life.

Thank you for sharing your recent and rapidly evolving process.

Congratulations of moving out of remorse and heartache and on to the next series of feelings.

The Difference Between Whining and Winning

can be close to zero.

Sat, 29 Mar 2008

Hmmm ...

I don't seem to notice sinusoidal bursts.

I wonder if you know the frequency and amplitude of these insulin bursts and degree to which by which 3 servings per week of salmon attenuates these bursts. 

I wonder if the frequency of application of salmon (3/week) excites its own sinusoidal response pattern.

After only a Few Short Weeks

of following Dr. Fish's 3x Salmon Diet

these Aquarian Acolytes

report a feeling

of being "in the pink" again.

They also report

a curious desire

to swim up waterfalls

to have sex and then die.

Date: Sat, 29 Mar

FAQ Study and Review

Hi Ed,

I am happy to say that I have completed going through FAQ from the very beginning to current, while taking careful notes - in fact, 180 pages total. Here's a breakdown by year:

2003: 31 pages
2004: 26 pages
2005: 22 pages
2006: 31 pages
2007: 54 pages
2008: 6 pages (~3 months)

I think there are two reasons 2007 is significantly above average. One is that I seem to get more out of the left-hand-side of the FAQ, and secondly, I think my understanding broadens such that those answers on the right I used not to get and might ignore now becomes ahas and a part of my note.

At current pace, 2008 is a "down" year, possibly due to the 2-month FAQ vacation.

Thank you very much for creating and maintaining FAQ. It's like anextended version of The Trader's Window that I read at your house. I have noticed throughout the years you have changed (e.g. You most frequent response now is "Thank you for sharing your process", which we don't see that in early years) The left-hand-side also shifts from predominately trading with how to conduct TTP and now a balance of trading and reporting TTP progress (and of course many other topics).

On the right hand side, there also seems to be periods with extensive responses and periods with mostly one-lined response. On the left hand side, it seems that the contributors grow as well, in terms of the kinds of questions that they ask.

Compared to June 2003 when I participated in the first local TT meeting, I think the biggest benefit for me is to lessen my desire to "fix" other people and just accept/support them to be the way they are.

I think this is critical in my relationship with my wife (then  girlfriend). Another big lesson is on validating other people's feelings. Moreover, through INTENTION = RESULT, I find myself using less and less excuse but realize things are largely the way it is through my creation. I can also see how many people use excuses to medicate.

There are many more lessons I can't possibly list them all here, including commitment, the illusion of time, and many more.

One thing I still feel there is a "weak spot" in terms of my right livelihood. My current job allows me to stay close with the market, and most importantly, a very good income that I feel is crucial as I will be a father soon.

However, I am not feeling satisfied nor fulfilled, as I feel that with my limited math and computer skills (they are above average as I have a master degree in engineering, but far below average in the quant-land where everyone holds a PhD) I can never be successful doing trading the way we trade at my job (heavy use of computers and algorithms and complicated models to manage billion dollars portfolio of equities world-wide). As such, I am only riding the coattail of my boss.

Of course, the answer seems simple - just quit my job and do what I love. But all my work experience has been in this area, and there is a fear I wish not to confront - the fear of not having a job - especially one that is allowing me to be many times the median income (I know I can hardly find another job that pays me this well), and especially when I know my expense will soon skyrocket with a new born.

I know a lot of these are just rationalizing, and possibly such that I do not have to confront the fear of having no income to support my family, but the fear is so overwhelming that I dare not get close to it.

In return, I am feeling unfulfilled and unsatisfied. Even though I don't like these feelings either, apparently I must like them more than the feeling of experiencing the fear of jobless and broke. After reading so many FAQs,

I feel that a likely response would be "Thank you for sharing your process. You might consider taking your feeling of <fear of not having a job> to your tribe."

Thank you for your report on the evolution of FAQ and the evolution of you.

One Intention of Fear

is risk control.

The confusing presumptions are:

(1) Risk is knowable and bad.

(2) Control is possible and good.

Clip: http://communities.canada.com/

vancouversun/blogs/thesearch/archive/

2008/01/26/in-a-culture-of-fear-staying-

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 16:29:18 +0100 (CET)
 

TTP and Health

Dear Mr. Seykota,

In the FAQs there are different opinions about ideal weight and goals. You might consider to publish these reflections in the FAQs:

I know a nutritionist. She uses a solid trading system, limits risk, and lets the profits run. She does not get in or out of positions based on price objectives. She is a trend trader and it is likely that she achieves financial success.

I also know a trader who decides to improve his fitness. He thoroughly evaluates tables and graphs from insurance companies. He sets goals for his weight, endurance and resistance; they are based on statistics and intensive analysis of the literature. He bases his goals and decisions on fundamental data. Statistics suggest that this approach is less rewarding than trend trading.

I know a runner whose goal to run the marathon in 2:12 hours led to a result of 2:19 and hindered him from running the realistic time of 2:15. He still has to work on his trading system.

Thank you for sharing your reflections.  They cut to the essential differences between the causal and system model.

I maintain that TTP lies at the point where you can hold both models simultaneously - that is, you can follow a system that moves you toward the goal without attachment to the goal.

When the exercise of the discipline (in this case, less food and more motion) becomes the "goal." The process of doing integrates with the essence of being.

That is, those who walk the path without attachment to the mile markers are likely to notice themselves traversing the markers as a matter of course.

If You Stay on the Path

the moment of now

eventually delivers you

to the zero point.

Clip: http://www.magazineusa.com/us/cityguide/

Fri, 28 Mar 2008

Seven New Sins

Hi Ed,

I wonder what you think about the seven new sins
 

http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=20601102&sid=aizloDFbRPRM&refer=uk

As a Catholic (baptized when I was a kid before I could even remember), I feel agitated, maybe even a little angry, at how CRAZY the Church is. Three of those sins are pretty much the same (excessive wealthy, creating poverty and contributing to widening divide between rich and poor), and they seem to be arguing for communism which has proven to be economic disaster. It also reminds me of how the middle ages popes used to possess wealth and power at unthinkable magnitude, so it's very hypocritical for the pope now to denounce excessive wealth to the point that it is now a sin.

Birth control ("bioethical violations") is also a sin now.
Interestingly, if you plot income per person (log) vs children per woman (lin), there is a clear inverse relationship. On the bottom right (low income per person and high children per woman) are Afghanistan, Niger and Congo. In general terms, either one violates "bio-ethically" (e.g. birth control), or runs the risk of creating poverty and contributing to widening divide between rich and poor.

According to Catholic source, sin is defined as "an offense against reason, truth, and right conscience..." ( http://tinyurl.com/22mwn6 ).
From previous paragraph, the Church's new sins are conflicting and against reason, and so it seems to me that their declaration of new sins is a sin itself, at least according to the definition in Catholic Catechism.

It is driving me nuts, and I find myself keep repeating "stupid,stupid, stupid" as I read the news in disbelief, keep wondering how people - supposedly "holy" people - can be so incredibly stupid, ignorant, and illogical. This is actually a very interesting observation. Apparently I have lots of feelings about the church, and maybe even a knot in "stupidity." I guess this may be another entry point for me to the hot seat. It just makes me very disappointed at the Church (as I say I am baptized as a Catholic as a child and still go to mass weekly), and wonder if I'd want my child to be a part of this community.



The seven social sins are:

1. ``Bioethical' violations such as birth control

2. ``Morally dubious'' experiments such as stem cell research

3. Drug abuse

4. Polluting the environment

5. Contributing to widening divide between rich and poor

6. Excessive wealth

7. Creating poverty

The notion of sin rests upon the causal model derivative principle: judgment. 

Judgment is an essential element in a social structure that relies on blame and guilt in order to exert social control.

Your attempts to make sense of it are likely to lead to frustration.

You either accept it "on faith" or you do not.

Some people prefer the blue pill and others prefer the red one.

And a very few prefer to be content with people taking whatever pill they like.

“You have to see it for yourself.

This is your last chance.

After this there is no turning back.

You take the blue pill,

the story ends, you wake up in your bed

and believe whatever you want to believe.

You take the red pill,

you stay in Wonderland,

and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

Remember, all I’m offering is the truth,

nothing more … .”

–Morpheus, The Matrix

Fri, 28 Mar 2008

Wants Help

see previous

Thank you again for pointing out my flaws.

I am arrogant, although I prefer to think that it’s enthusiasm – but it isn’t. Because of this arrogance simply cannot feel love or care about the other person.

I appreciate your honesty.


I do not want to live anymore – I have been like this since a child and nothing has changed.

I’m incongruent and prone to fighting when I’d rather hug the person (I can’t remember the last hug – oh, come to think of it, actually I do. This new years eve. It was a strange and big party. I noticed a lot of emotional reactions from people I didn’t even know.

When I stood still, the women would want to dance with me, the men would want to provoke me. I almost got into a fight over a girl, believe me, I was just having a nice conversation and she was alone. I tried to find common ground with the guy that intruded but that didn’t really work out – I also figured him pushing me from behind when I was dancing with another girl later on (just to forget the whole thing and have some fun) was definitely overdone.

I ran up to him and told him to never push me again. He pushed me again and stood there. (It turned out that this guy was the organizer of the party, which I didn’t know. Maybe I was impolite for not introducing myself earlier and he felt offended by that – interestingly I probably do this because I personally don’t think anyone would like to get to know me).

I thought about this and I waited for the guy to show up again. A nice older man came up to me, talked about the absurdity of the situation, which I agreed with, he could sense that I was upset. After a few minutes of talk, we simultaneously reached out to each other and hugged and wished each other a happy new year – he calmed me down and I thanked him.

You might consider defining the help you want to receive - and then locating someone to whom to give this kind of help.

I Wonder How This Supplicant

happens to have her sign

already on the boat

and all ready to go

Thu, 27 Mar 2008

Catches Mis-spelling

see previous

Thank you for the catch.

The Lead in Soldering

has a different form from ...

The Lead in Soldiering

From left to right:

 .22 lr, .380 auto, .38 special,

9mm, .357 magnum, .40 S&W,

.45 acp, .44 magnum, 7.62x39mm, 8mm

Clips:

http://www.howardelectronics.com/

amtech/images/63-37-031.jpg

Fri, 28 Mar 2008

Workshop Date

Thu, 27 Mar 2008

Just Show Up

Ed,

Can I just show up in Chicago for July or is there a process for me to join?

Thu, 27 Mar 2008

Wants to Access Archive

Hi Ed,

Thu, 27 Mar 2008

Here's the Deal

Mr. Seykota,

It will take sometime for me to send a cheque for USD 5000 . That $5,000 is about 200,000.00 in our currency which is quite a lot of money. As you know every $ is important for me . It is also a financial year end for us on 31st March 27, and I don’t know how much of my depleted resources will be with drawn. I know those $5000 could turn out to be worth millions if I could find any kind of answers thru you. So I am going to try my best “where there’s a will there’s always a way” as they say. Please give me some time. I hope it’s not too late before we can begin.

The way I understand it, you wish to obtain my services to assist you in taking a big plunge in the markets in order to solve your problem of being in debt due to your market plunging.

Thank you, no.

I do not wish to take money from you that you need for living expenses. I do not wish to participate in enabling your patterns and elevating delinquencies to an even higher level.

Under the circumstances, I recommend you post your concerns to FAQ where I can deal with them for free and anonymously.

Dealing with Gambling

may be useful

as an excuse

for not dealing

with deeper issues

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Dealing with Hunger

Wt. loss

Thank you for sharing your experience.

Dealing with hunger seems fairly straight forward. You feel hungry, you eat.

Dealing with other forms of emptiness (loneliness, frustration, lack of fulfillment) by eating can serve to medicate these feelings, thereby postponing pro-active solutions and piling on fat as a bonus.

Putting on Fat

can be a solution

to deeper conflicts.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008

Wants to Ask Questions

Yes, you may address questions to this column.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Forsaking SSRI

Ed,

...as I recall, Dr. Fischer says something like "a world without love is a deadly place"... this is why, even when my brain chemistry is the most fu---- up, I will not now, nor will I ever take pure SSRI type drugs.

Firstly, they don't work, secondly, I'm not willing to sacrifice orgasmic response, thirdly, it doesn't make sense to me. Without being able to open the skull and sample the neurotransmitter s, How does an MD know which system is failing?

Maybe it's the dopaminergic response, or norepinephrine. Yet most of the drugs target serotonin. I am convinced that I have a pure (or nearly so) deficiency in the norepinephrine response.

The only drug that targets nor-epi is Reboxitine, available in Europe, but FDA has blocked all attempts to bring it here. GRRRRR.

I finally had to raise the dose of meds to %50 higher than the normal recommended dose to achieve the nor epi response that I needed. It finally kicked in. I'm also feeling sexual for the first time in months ... go figure.

Of course I would rather not have to take them. But, when faced with the level of despair I feel without them, well .... I'm signed on for now. I don't know if I ever told you that my mothers death was a suicide. And it was not her first attempt.

I see no convincing evidence for or against the hypothesis that your condition is essentially glandular.

Your situation is, incidentally,  consistent with using one obsessive pattern (heartache about a fickle boy-friend) to mask the symptoms of deeper right-livelihood issues.

I suspect that once you settle your vocational issues the allure of obsessing over Mr. Ex and others may abate.

Harville Hendrix is the champion of Imago Theory, a school of thought that notices the subconscious pattern of attracting parental surrogate figures in order to resolve early issues.

Pining ...

... and whining

can be useful

as medication

for deeper issues.

Clips:

http://jesuschristblog.blog.com/1788621/

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Cancer and Fatigue

Dear Mr. Seykota,

I am thinking a lot about your question, if fatigue in cancer patients is related to emotional issues. I feel and found evidence that the problem is physiological (loss of physical performance due to organic changes created by chemo-or radiotherapy), but it is a sequel of cancer and its treatment, which in my opinion can be related to emotional issues.

I have seen some impressive evidence of mental conflicts coinciding with the outbreak of physical diseases. And you are right, it is wonderful to help patients this way. The experience with cancer and depression patients is very rewarding, even more when I consider that we do not use drugs but the biological principle of adaptation.

To your email:

I congratulate you for your progress, it is impressive and solid. Hence, you can expect it to continue, even if you don't change your current habits.

Before setting weight goals, consider that

- your larger muscle mass will increase your weight. The increase can be huge (4 or 5 kg, if you are big and exercising heavily). There is growing evidence that fitness is a more reliable predictor of low cardiovascular risk than body weight.

A goal based on tables can be misleading. You are already burning more calories than your intake. If you keep your exercise program and your diet, you will loss further weight until a certain point. It might be above or below your goal weight. Maybe it is a good idea to wait and see. If it took you 30 years to build your figure, a re-shaping in a short time is uncomfortable. If you further reduce your calorie intake, you can feel weak. If you exaggerate the amount of exercise, you can get injured.

You can only reduce abdominal fat if you reduce your total fat.

The ratio between abdominal and total fat depends on several factors (race, genetics, hormones, gender). There is no non-surgical way of local fat reduction, since you cannot change your race or genetics, and hormonal treatment is still experimental.

I don't know, should I make a joke about sex change? No, you are serious about diet and exercise. A more traditional approach is to improve your posture: more relaxed back muscles and a firmer abdominal wall. Again, this will take some time. Consider that weight loss will also reduce the intra-abdominal fat, which you don't see but enlarges your waist.

If you are used to high-concentrated carbohydrates (candy bars,chocolate), you can feel hypoglycemic even at normal blood sugarconcentrations. The same happens if you have a high blood pressure and your doctor lowers it with medicaments. It takes some time until you are used to the new values. If the feelings persist after 2 or 3 months, it is likely that your diet is too strict.

It may be difficult to sustain an exercise program on a very low carbohydrate diet. If you are experiencing problems with your energy level, it can be useful to eat some non-refined carbohydrates (oatmeal, fruit or non-processed cereals) 60 minutes before the workout. They will be absorbed slowly and help sustain your energy level during the workout.

Dried cereals (cornflakes) are not ideal, maybe you can find muesli or granola without sugar or honey. I don't know the brands in the US.- I do not recommend a very low carbohydrate diet, rather non-refined carbohydrates. Overweight is probably related to the concentration of carbohydrates and hence to the release rate of sugar from the gut in blood.

A high amount of fiber leads to satiety and, more important, to a lower release of sugar in blood. Hence, you will have a more stable energy level and no peaks in blood sugar, which lead to increased release of hormones, hunger and finally to weight gain.

An example: boiled potatoes are better than mashed potatoes are better than fried potatoes are better than potato chips, which are really a problem. Grapes are better than raisins are better than honey are better than sugar, which is mostly unnecessary.

About your training routine:

- An elliptical exercise machine is excellent. Running is even better, but is related to a high rate of injuries (maybe as high as 30%/year, meaning 1/3 of runners are injured at least once a year).

- Circuit training is more effective to burn calories than working with weights, since the work out lasts longer (I do not count the breaks between exercises.

Thank you for the information.

I am already following many of your suggestions.

I am holding my "target weight" of 175 pounds more as a notion  than as a "do or die" goal.  I am watching my shape and noticing my feelings as primary guidance.

I spend about 30 minutes on the elliptical, about 5x per week.  I adjust the resistance settings such that I maintain a heart rate of around 125 beats/minute.

I train with weights about 1 hour, 3x per week with a trainer.  The idea is to run about three sets of around 10 reps (depending on the particular exercise) such that the last few reps exhaust the muscle to the point where it no longer functions.  This requires embracing considerable physical pain and fatigue.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Cancer

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Amazing Picture

see Feelings about Soldiering

Your email communicates your feelings in vivid detail.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

On Losing the Spare Tire

Ed,

Congrats on getting your butt off the couch and getting back in shape! I did likewise last year (I am 45). I was 202 (5' 8") and got serious about my nutrition and fitness. I purchased the [brand] fitness program and lost 30 lbs in 90 days.

Boom! Back in shape. I can tell you that getting the washboard abs took more than 90 days but I did it. It's been six months since I started the program. However, my journey took a few detours along the way.

I suffered from lack of energy early in the training (very discouraging at times) but I kept studying about nutrition and listening to my body's needs.

I experimented with protein drinks, bars, supplements, etc.. Now, I simply eat nutritional foods that I like but in moderation. I also experimented with eating six small meals per day (instead of 3 large meals).

Thank you for sharing your process - and for your support.

My research indicates that spot reduction is ineffective on stomach fat. 

The best system I know indicates small portions, lots of water, adequate rest, cardio and total body strength training.

The Rewards of Losing Weight

include having an attractive body

and / or attracting one.

Clip: http://www.buzzle.com/

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Pushes People Away

see previous

Ed,

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Ideal Weight - Risk Computer

Thank You. I love the picture.

Congratulations on your improved health. A thought: Don't get caught up in "ideal" weights per someone else's height/weight chart. We're all different. Your "ideal" weight is different from somebody else who is also 5'10".

Check out this link

http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=3027275#
 

Thank you for your support.

The risk computer results are very encouraging.

I am travelling into new territory and I am relying on books, my physician and my trainer as mentors.  So far, all agree that 175 pounds is workable and desirable.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008


Wondering

see previous

Ed,

Thank you for being so wonder-ful.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

How To Do That

see previous

Ed,

No, thank you. I have no wish for you to do anything in particular.

I hold you as perfect the way you are.

I know you are getting exactly what you want.

Codependency

can describe a person

who becomes an addict's caretaker.

Codependents typically:

Enable - allow the addict to continue

the addiction pattern.

Rescue - save the addict

from having to confront the consequences

of their behavior.

Worry - care about the addict's behavior.

 

Clip and Information:

http://www.karenzazzera.com/counseling

http://www.uaf.edu/chc/MentalHealth/

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Helen Fisher on Love and Medications - Video

Ed,

You might like this talk from TED.

Video:

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

Wants to Help

see previous

You might consider forming a Tribe in your area.

Wed, 26 Mar 2008

System Results

see Challenge

Dear Sir Ed,

I'm attaching the Strategy Performance Report of a Stock Index System that I'm trading since 2004. The time frame to generate signals is 30 minutes and the instrument in S&P Nifty. Average number of trades the strategy generates is about 3 to 4 trades a month. The frequency is higher than what you have described in Point #1 in you reply to "Wants a Challenge" FAQ.

Now as far as actual trading performance is concerned it is nowhere near the simulated performance, still my equity has grown by a rate of 50%CAGR in last 4 years.

The reason for this is that there are still a bundle of feelings which are stuck up in my psyche as adversaries and I still use my trading system to feel them rather than dealing with them directly.

I'm reading your FAQ since 2005 and my ability to stick to my system has improved tremendously. Just reading your replies somehow resolves complex knots, the FAQ gives words to feelings.

Lastly I just want to conclude that:

1) I'm comfortable with my System.

2) Reading FAQ is helpful to me.

3) My Goal is to achieve zero variation between the signals of system and actual trades.

4) Experience the feelings directly that will come up from pursuing Point #3 and not use my trading to medicate those feeling.

Tue, 25 Mar 2008

Trading and Sex

Ed,

What an interesting workshop it is: Food, Sex and Trading.

I feel I have patterns among these activities. I like to drink a small half cup of red wine at dinners when markets are trending and my positions do well.

I like to have sex when trends are accelerating and my account equity line is shooting up.

At these moments, markets normally are at turning points for pullback.

I feel very nervous and aroused. Interestingly, my wife notices my patterns and shows her feelings with me nicely.

I am doing well since my last checkout. In trading, I am more willing to experience feelings when my equity is in drawdown and more willing to buy high and sell low.

Recent volatility in equity and commodity markets brings me a lot of heat. Fortunately, I have TTP and a tribe to support me to go through these feelings, so I have less tendency to play my dramas in my trading. I am growing to be a better trader.

My family is also trending upward nicely. We have less dramas and more channels to communicate our feelings. I am more willing to accept my wife and kids as what they are and use resources that I have to make things flow naturally. We start to play poker games with our friends during weekends. We also play mini soccer, football and baseball with neighbor kids, just for fun. We enjoy life more now.

Our tribe is also growing. Now we have four members and probably one more joins us soon.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Congratulations on your successes.

Trading and Sex

These lovely ladies

are amusing themselves

by communicating their prediction

for the British Pound

or maybe it's heating oil.

Trader terms to describe

an advance in price

include, to mention a few:

Hot

Bull

Stiff

Firm

Bulge

Rising

Surging

Thrusting

and Climax.

Clip: http://istef.vox.com/

Tue, 25 Mar 2008

Wants a Challenge

see previous

Ed,

Thank you for your reply.

The challenge is:

(1) to demonstrate an automatic trading system that generates high frequency trading signals, where high frequency means the trades have a duration of a couple weeks or less;

(2) to show a track record of actual trades on brokerage house statements that match the signals in (1);

(3) to achieve near zero variation between (1) and (2) for a period of three contiguous months.

The absence of any meaningful response to this challenge is consistent with the theory that high frequency trading is mostly useful as a way to generate excitement and anxiety to medicate deeper issues.

Goals

Focus on your goals.

Just don't get caught focusing.

Mon, 24 Mar 2008

Wants a Lot

Ed,

(1) You told me one day, “that I have a lot to learn” – I want to learn whatever that is.

(2) I hit a complete low in my life (radially) and I don’t really understand why – I want to feel better and get motivated to at least pay back my debts soon enough.

(3) I sent my resume to literally dozens of trading firms – none replied. Perhaps you could take a look at the documents and see what’s missing, [One of them] is considering my resume for a trading position, however I doubt I’m genius enough for them.)

(4) I want to feel appreciated and accepted – something which I didn’t exactly get at Incline – maybe you where right. However, I feel it was overdone a bit, even as a part of a master plan. Just a feeling.

(5) I want to learn how to be a good father and family man

(6) I want to learn how to attract excellent girls and become intimate with them for the long term.

(7) I want to learn all the mind control techniques too (for the greater good). I can sense you use quite a bit of them

(8) I want to learn how to get a job done. I find myself hopelessly procrastinating and my batteries are dead.

(9) Most of all, I want clarity, wisdom and confidence so I can move on with my pathetic life (the pain I’m feeling now is something I recall from many years back – I just shoved it under the rug – now I’m disillusioned and it hurts)

(10) I want to be myself and find ways to protect that self. I witness a lot of personal attacks and challenging when I feel good and freely express myself (wierd).

I suppose you’d want to me to come to Incline and do TTP. Great, but since I’m broke I’d need a job to support myself. Maybe you could find me a truck to drive or perhaps mowing the lawn or whatever. I can do anything. If I do get a serious job elsewhere within a few weeks, I could save up and then arrive. In the meantime, maybe you could find a better solution for me. Any feedback or suggestions are greatly appreciated.

Thank you for getting back.

You might consider:

- practicing appreciating and accepting others.

- asking some excellent women if they are willing to become long-term intimate with someone who wishes to be a good father and family man and who also wishes to attract many other excellent intimate women.

- taking your feelings about  <entitlement> to Tribe.

Arrogance

is an unrealistically high sense of entitlement,

sometimes accompanying a feeling of superiority

manifesting in an overbearing manner

and / or in presumptuous claims or assumptions.


 

Here are some examples

of what many people feel

lies well within their entitlement.

Health insurance
Higher wages
Prescription drugs
A better life
Better schools
To be famous
Better working conditions
Air Conditioning
Right to vote
2 weeks paid vacation
A house and/or a car
Better job
 

Attempts to Medicate

the sense of entitlement

can drive a society

into insolvency.

Other Thoughts on Arrogance

“For one to expect or ask things of others

that he himself, if asked,

would not be willing to do or give,

is the worst kind of arrogance.”

-- Anthony Beale

Horror book writer, American Author,

Poet and Editor, b.1974
 

“No one is more arrogant toward women,

more aggressive or scornful,

than the man who is anxious about his virility.”

-- Simone de Beauvoir,

French Writer and feminist, 1908-1986
 

“When men are most sure and arrogant

they are commonly most mistaken,

giving views to passion

without that proper deliberation

which alone can secure them

from the grossest absurdities.”

-- David Hume

Scottish Philosopher, Historian,

Economist and Essayist. 1711-1776
 

“Nobody can be so amusingly arrogant

as a young man who has just discovered

an old idea and thinks it is his own.”

-- Sydney J. Harris

American Journalist and Author,

author of the syndicated column,

Strictly Personal, from 1944-86. 1917-1986