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(Quotes from Ed in Red)

Wed, 10 Oct 2007

Evolution of TTP

see: Signature Forms

Thank you for sharing your process.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007

Growing a Fine Whine

Hi Ed:

I am fascinated with today's "Stomach Ache" post on FAQ. I am reading and rereading the part of your response about the Rocks Process:

Ed Says: The Rocks Process can help you to link your emotions to an effective response, thereby modifying the underlying situation.

I write this line on a note card to read and study over and over. I know this is not the first time I learn this, but it feels like the first time.

I am trying to apply these FAQ lessons to myself. In my own life, I am noticing that my once "enthusiastic" personality is now becoming "whiney."

I am wondering if my previous, and somewhat constant, enthusiasm may be medication. However, I am guessing that becoming whiney may not necessarily be an effective (or socially rewarding) response to link my emotions to.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Whining

yawping, sniveling, whimpering,

yammering and grizzling

are most effective

when your target

is unwilling to listen

to these forms.

One of the most effective

responses to complaining

is to listen to it,

acknowledge it and encourage it.

Clip: http://isthismylife.blogdrive.com/archive/

Wed, 10 Oct 2007

Associate Program - Learning to Trade

Stopping Out Against the Trend

Ed,

I am stopped out of one of my (short) positions in the Dow Jones. I still have one position open along with the yen trade. Yesterday the two pretty much cancel each other out.

I lose very little for the day even though the Dow hits a new high. I feel like the Dow in going to take me out of my other position and then I will watch for a down trend to develop.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007

Signature Forms & Getting Relief

From Stomach Ache

Hi Ed,

Earlier today my Wife and I received, in the mail, a letter pertaining to a particularly sensitive legal ... matter involving [situation].

This was not something out of the blue, but something that we had expected and I had imagined that I would be cool & relaxed about the whole thing. I already know what's coming, so why be upset about it?

How wrong I was.

Upon reading the letter I felt sick in my stomach & very distressed (ditto my wife)

O.k. my 'buttons were pushed' and I reacted in a manner different to what I though I would.

Unfortunately there is no Tribe handy so in an attempt to gain some relief I undertake to do some DIM (Do It Myself) work, knowing full well that DIM is a very poor substitute to the field of acknowledgment that a Tribe can provide. However, it's a choice between DIM or nothing. I choose the former and find myself in the same old form that seems to be 'super-glued' to me.

No matter what my issue is the form is always the same. An old 'friend' indeed. (please see my comment re: Signature Forms below)

The form consists of screwing up my face, clenching my fists and curling up in a ball (on the floor) together with a need to SCREAM as loudly as I can "LEAVE ME the F--- alone!!!!!!"

(I am, however, unable to scream)

I try hard to visualize a Tribe helping me on, but without much success. Unfortunately my imagination is not up to task of recreating a real cheering Tribe.
As stated above, this is the same form (more or less) that I have displayed ever since I did my very first hot seat (nearly 2 years ago)

I feel an intense seething anger and resentment and a want to SMASH everything and everyone to pieces. I hate everything & everyone.

I further feel as though I want to be left totally alone, I'm sick and tired of being hassled.
A major theme throughout is "STOP hassling me!!"

I speculate (actually, strongly suspect) that perhaps I feel this way due to issues with bullies and teasing during my early school days. Who knows? maybe I'm being too intellectually analytical with the whole thing but this is what I suspect.

Anyhow, you may wonder if I managed to feel any relief via D.I.M., I can say, YES most definitely. I do feel somewhat relieved for now.

The more important question is, did I resolve anything? The answer to this is, unfortunately, NO!

-----

To close, I believe this 'stuff' contributes to major blocks in my life that prevent me from moving forward to my full potential and as such I would like to come to terms with the issues involved.
I've had this kind of bs in my life for too long now & I want to do something about it

It is my intention to experience & explore the feelings associated with the above at the upcoming Workshop (Workshop Format permitting of course).
I would also like to explore the phenomenon of Signature Forms to see if I can find some way to break through this recurring form of mine

As stated above re: Signature forms, I had emailed to FAQ a contribution last year titled;
"Signature Forms" - Sun 10th September 2006
In this FAQ, I basically repeat the same issues as that which I outline above, so nothing has changed in one whole year.

Same s---, different day.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Part of our TTP work (Disappearance Process)  rehabilitates the flow of feelings from Fred to CM (Conscious Mind).  As we bring feelings to awareness, we generate insights and knowledge. In the process, the feeling disappears.

In this way, the process can be "medicinal" as it can bring temporary "relief" from unpleasant feelings. 

Another part of the work (Rocks Process) discovers the positive intention of the feelings and links the emotions associating with the feelings to pro-active resources.

In this way, your emotions automatically trigger effective real-world responses.

You state that when you read the letter, you feel sick in your stomach.

The Awareness Process (and a Tribe and a Healing Field of Acknowledgment) can help you develop awareness and to "feel better" temporarily. The Rocks Process can help you to link your emotions to an effective response, thereby modifying the underlying situation.

Your situation might make an excellent example for the Workshop of the application of the Rocks Process.

Stomach Ache

You can medicate it with drugs

and even with the Disappearance Process.

A side effect of medication

is the appearance

of "signature forms."

You can also discover

the positive intention of the feelings

(remedy something you can't stomach)

and engage resources

to respond pro-actively

to the underlying situation.

Clip: http://do2learn.org/picturecards/printcards/

Tue, 9 Oct 2007

Thank you for the information on AA.

You might consider taking your feelings about <the message not matching the intention> to Tribe.

 

Steps 2, 3, 5, 6, 7, 11 and 12 seem to carry some flavor of the original Oxford Fundamentalist Movement.

 

AA practitioners admit powerlessness and wrong doing and supplicate to a higher power for redemption.

 

For some AA practitioners, attending AA meetings becomes a replacement medication.
 

Source: http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/

Tue, 9 Oct 2007

Associate Program - Learning to Trade

Ed,

Tue, 09 Oct 2007

Hoping to Get it Back

Dear Ed,

Ed says: Love supports willingness to experience the cozy and the uncomfortable (FAQ Oct 2, 2007).

I love it and feel very encouraged to travel to [City] and attend a lecture ... Unfortunately my flirt is not there.

The following two days things are trending down, I get a terrible back ache and let everything go. I realize that this is a form.

Thank you for sharing your processes.

You might consider taking your feelings about <getting it back> to Tribe.

Back Pain

typically has a positive intention

of informing you

about something you want

such as, for example,

 someone or something

coming back.

Clip: http://www.mybackreallyhurts.com/

Tue, 9 Oct 2007

Hot-Headed Investors Make Better Decisions

Dear Ed Bhai,

I hope you are well.

Here is a Reuters Report from Yahoo of a study that shows people "...who experienced their feelings with greater intensity during decision-making -- achieved higher decision-making performance." The link is below.

Thanks for all the work you do and for believing its important to share and enrich. All power to YOUR Right Livelihood snapshot.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20070913/

bs_nm/markets_stocks_emotion_dc_2;

_ylt=Au8tHtKw5u3vm9.PX5c8QR0E1vAI

--
 

Thank you for the link.

I do not see much about the method for measuring performance.

Mon, 8 Oct 2007

Going Slower and Calmer

Hi Ed,


Ed Says: Sat, 29 Sep 2007 Getting to Bliss
“People who just sit and look at their mind rarely get to the bottom of anything. People who sit with others - and encourage each other to stay with their feelings typically get there.“ - and - “Meditation can be a form of medication.”

Shows incredible insight. How you read me / others through a few short emails is a wonderful gift. I have used DIM for years trying to get some result (questionable intentions); I did get a result - holding pattern. Current intention is to continue learning TTP and to get there with a tribe. Also, I do use meditation as medication – great perception! You, you're very good!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UAUtiU-68I&

mode=related&search=skoudegod%20beker%20

adams

I received the book, thanks. I am finishing my current read and then will study it.

I saw in FAQ a contributor wrote about wanting infinite $ so they could help the peoples of the world. I guess they would give it away, I was struck by what you do as helping the people by “teaching them to fish so they eat for the rest of their life.” This seems very satisfying, congratulations on this achievement. Further reflection on this leads to the idea that the collective Tribe is at work to help the individual tribe member and thus the Tribe itself. So by opening up and sharing we help the collective Tribe with the fish and loaf.

As for my system changes I am running tests on exits and find that my trailing stop is better if it is much wider. So much so I am shocked at it and my use of close stops / targets, I guess I got what I wanted, drama. I think I was medicating in some way with the idea of “lots of small winners and a high win rate would work in the long run.”

Note: “in the long run” J.  

Mon, 8 Oct 2007

Niederhoffer Blows Up Again

Ed,

My apologies for the length email I am forwarding regarding Victor Niederhoffer's very recent blowup, but I thought it a fascinating tale of an individual who could benefit from a tribe and some serious risk-management that others would want to read.

While I am not criticizing him, as he appears to be brilliant though a bit eccentric, the description of his trading methodology sounds very much like an overuse of discretionary "feel" for the markets rather than an investment plan.

The denial of reality, especially where he watches markets other than his current position due to the losses on the current position being too painful, is a lesson for all of us. Unwillingness to use stops and reduce risk in an increasingly volatile market led him out on a limb that was eventually cut off by the margin clerks.

We should wish him well in his next attempt. Thank you for your diligence in recent weeks in responding to posts. Best wishes for a successful workshop this month.

 

Source: http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/

Thank you for the link and for the encouragement.

Victor Niederhoffer

People generally get what they want.

For example,

Some people seem to like

to blow themselves up.

Clip: http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/

Mon, 8 Oct 2007

Associate Program: Learning to Trade

Writing Off the Risk in Advance

Feelings about positions: I am feeling surprisingly fine about almost being stopped out. One of my friends was asking me whether I was really nervous and anxious about it. I told him that I did not feel that way. I actually feel that this is part of the game and I am doing a pretty good job doing what Ed suggests -- treat the stop loss money as being gone as soon as you place the order.

So, it feels to me that even when I am getting close to being stopped out, I am still playing with the markets money -- I already gave this money to the market when I initiated the position.

Writing off the risk when you place the trade may provide medication for the feeling of watching the market take your money.

You might consider taking your feelings about <losing money> to Tribe.

Riding The Highway

can be a lot easier

without the training wheels.

Clip: http://www.guzer.com/pictures/

Sun, 07 Oct 2007

Thinking About Envisioning a Relationship

see previous: Men and Women

Dear Ed,

Thank you very much for the idea!

Sat, 6 Oct 2007

Camber and Lift

see: www.Seykota.com / Bernoulli

Adding flaps changes the effective chord and the AOA (angle of attack) as well as the camber.

The T-38 tail stab can lower the tail relative to the nose, thus re-orienting the thrust vector.

The T-37 camber may contribute to the effective chord of the wing.

Lift is a function of angle of attack and of Radial Momentum (a minor effect in wing lift). RM lift occurs just behind the crest of the wing, where the airflow separates.

Thank you for sharing your experience of pre-mach drag.

I am currently in process with my next book.

A Pair of F-16's

can beat three of any other kind.

Clip: http://www.afterburnerseminars.com/

Sat, 6 Oct 2007

Certificate to Talk About Feelings

Hi Ed!

About a year ago I did send you an email including a lot of questions regarding the TTP-Rocks process and you gave me a silly "approval certificate". I agreed that you had a point but not until now I have been able to receive it totally.

I have been more and more aware that I ask my wife about permission to tell my feelings. Usually that happens when a bunch of depressed feelings get me irritated. I am a person who dislikes complaining so I have tried to avoid that. Not until I'm full of small inconveniences I let it out.

After a really good talk with my wife, I start analyzing my behavior. She keeps telling me the same thing - that I can tell her anything.

I start to understand that I'm actually asking for a "Certificate to tell my feelings". My wife let her feelings flow naturally and suddenly it seemed the right thing to do.

It was really an "Aha" feeling. Silly, because intellectually it's obvious. I notice I often need to put it into my situation to really feel it works out for me.

Sat, 06 Oct 2007

Women in Art - Continuous Morphing

Ed,

Date: Fri, 5 Oct 2007

Training a Squirrel to Follow a System

Ed,

Since you are so close to nature, I thought that you might enjoy this fabulous video ...

http://www.funnieststuff.net/viewmovie.php?ad_

Fri, 5 Oct 2007

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider taking your feelings about <delay> and <struggle> to Tribe.

Struggle

can be pro-active

or medicinal.

Clip: http://randyelrod.typepad.com/

Fri, 5 Oct 2007

Commits to Financial Prosperity

Dear Mr. Seykota,

Great to see emotions are trending in the now. I have read all the FAQ since 2003 and want to thank you and all the contributors. Especially those that have chosen the challenging path of feeling the "Road Less Traveled", to paraphrase the title of the beautiful book of S. Peck, of personal growth and share their experiences openly. Their work is an inspiration for me to never give up in the process of inner discovery and personal evolution. I am reading all the posts again so to have them touch a deeper emotional level.

Feeling my feelings has already provided some results. As an example, for 20 years I used to smoke 1-2 packs of cigarettes a day and since 10 years I no longer smoke. I used to exercise once a week and since 8 years I exercise 4 times a week. I was overweight and I am now slender. I used to be afraid of sharing my feeling openly and crying was rare. Now, although sometimes is challenging, I talk about my emotions and I cry at times. But, as you said, the emotional pealing is a never ending process. As a result, I have contacted a tribe nearby, but did not get any answer. I am now Tribing with my wife. As you said: "family is the essential tribe". We meet once a week. Here is what came out after a couple of meetings.

What stands between me and financial prosperity? I started to feel a knot in my throat. I am afraid. Fear, fear, fear. It feels like a stone, brown. It moves to the left side of my head.

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider creating a Snapshot that represents your vision of Financial Prosperity.

You might also consider tracking the brown stone in your throat and converting it to an ally by discovering its positive intention.

Brownstone

is a common name for various forms of sandstone, a common building material in New York City in the post civil war period.

 

Brownstone comes from quarries in New York, Pennsylvania, Connecticut and Massachusetts.

Rain water erodes brownstone. By the end of the 19th century, brownstone loses popularity.

Clip: http://www.tqnyc.org/NYC040658/development

Fri, 5 Oct 2007

Associate Program: Learning to Trade

Looking for Markets to Enter

Ed,

I am short the Yen and the Dow. I make back most of my loss in the Dow and am close to breakeven. I feel good about hanging with the all the volatility. I am looking for other markets to enter. I would prefer to have 3 to 6 markets on at a time as this seems to improve the offset ability.

Here are my positions:

Yen:

GTC Sell Market 1 Contract Dec 07 Yen.
Fill at 8643.
GTC Buy Stop 1 Contract Dec 07 Yen at 8777.
Risk of 134 times $12.50 equals $1,675.

Dow Jones:

GTD Sell Limit 1 Contract Dec07 DJ mini at 13925.
Fill at 13925.
GTC Buy Stop 1 Contract Dec 07 DJ mini at 14201.
Risk of 275 times $5 equals $1,375.
 

You might consider posting the dates of your fills along with the prices, so you can mark them on a price chart.

You might consider defining the method you are using to "look for markets" and then check to see if your method actually explains your trading.

You might also consider back-testing your method to determine an optimal parameter set.

For starters, you can generate a graph of the equity in your trading account and mark your exits and entries on the chart. Then, you can hyperlink the marks to charts of the trading instruments that show your exits and entries.  On each chart, you can annotate your feelings surrounding each trade.

You may discover some interesting patterns about your own trading.

Note: Issuing a Market-GTC order during trading hours is likely to confuse your broker / trading software.

In Building a House

and in trading the markets

some people have a conscious plan.

Others simply look

for the next thing to do

as the work progresses.

Clip: http://www.kirkanddonna.com/rtw/pics/

Thu, 4 Oct 2007

Annoying Wife

Hi Ed,

From the Father and Daughter example, it seems that one key element is sharing feelings.

What is the TTP alternative then when the other party does not want to share or receive feelings?

For example, last night somehow I get frustrated, and I make a grumbling noise. It actually happens several times over the course of the night, and every time I just unconsciously make that sound. My wife doesn't like it though. She annoyingly asks me why I am so frustrated, and implores me to stop doing so.

Obviously reacting to the content of her words is just enrolling myself into her drama.

But what is the proper way to deal with my feelings if the other party doesn't feel like sharing or receiving?

You might consider taking your feelings about <annoying wife> and <it's her fault> to Tribe.

Husband: Grumble, grumble ...

 

Wife: Why are you so frustrated?  Please stop doing that.

 

Husband: When you say that to me, I choose to feel annoyance. That perplexes me since I know you are just trying to help me find the positive intention of my frustration. Maybe you can help me figure out how come I keep setting you up like this.

 

Wife: Wow! You finally see it. You do it all the time. You keep sucking me into the drama and then you blame me. I am so happy you see this and that you are willing to work on yourself instead of on me.

 

Husband: Yes, I am willing to work on me.

 

Wife: Yes, and I'm willing to work on me.  I feel so lucky to have you in my life!

Blaming Others

is a fairly reliable path

toward gridlock. 

Thu, 04 Oct 2007

Dreaming About Dreaming


Ed,

I've been reading FAQ off-and-on for years before I joined the [City] Trading Tribe in February 2007. This is my first submission to FAQ:

The night before last I had a lucid dream.

It started as a conventional dream. I attend a banquet in a hotel ballroom or similar space. Actors Owen Wilson and Vince Vaughn arrive with pistols drawn. My intuition tells me they have come to rescue a guest.

At this time, a woman who had been sitting near me -- my visual impression of her is she has brown, curly hair and is wearing white, which suggests she may be the bride and this banquet is her wedding reception -- rises, armed with a rifle, and holds the muzzle at the back of the head of the person the actors intend to rescue. The intended rescue-ee is Dean Wormer from Animal House. The putative bride lowers the muzzle to the uppermost vertebra of Dean Wormer's back.

Let's get out of here, I think or say, though I don't know who is included with me in the us. I turn and slip away. In doing so, I find myself in my living room, at night, with enough light from the streetlamp outside to see by. The banquet room is where my kitchen used to be. I cross the living room to the hallway and then to my office, in order to pocket my wallet, cell phone, and car keys in order to make my escape.

While I'm pocketing these items, I realize I'm wearing the T-shirt and boxer shorts I slept in, which have no pockets, and I think I'm dreaming. I hesitate before believing this and decide to confirm I'm dreaming by going back to the living room. If I see my kitchen instead of the banquet room, I'll know I'm dreaming.

I return to the living room and see my kitchen. A warm feeling rises in my chest as I cross the living room to the kitchen entrance. I'm having a lucid dream. I can do whatever I want.

However, I then hesitate. I can't decide what I want to do. I consider conjuring a beautiful woman to walk into the kitchen from the laundry room, but I remember my wife is sleeping in our bedroom at the far end of the house [subjectively] / beside me in bed [objectively], and I don't conjure a beautiful woman. I can't think of anyone else to conjure, either. I shuffle my feet in an awkward, frustrated jig. I hesitate before turning on the kitchen light because I'm unwilling to take the chance the light will wake my wife. (The lucidity of the dream may have been fading). I do turn on the light and dance another jig with a little more grace than the previous one, but with the feeling burdening my shoulders that I've squandered a great opportunity.

I then wake up and decide to take the feeling of <not knowing what do when I can do anything> to my Tribe meeting that night.

(As an aside, a few hours after the dream, I read the FAQ entry Dream, Mon, 1 Oct 2007, and resolve to speculate on my experience as each element of the dream. I have not yet done so).

At my Tribe meeting, when my turn comes to be the hot seat, I story tell about the dream and <not knowing what do when I can do anything> while developing my forms, which include repetitive pushing away with my arms and shaking my head. The physical motions, the memory, and the feeling combine to put me in a mild trance.

Another tribe member goads me: "What's your problem?"

Me: "I may never again have the chance to get exactly what I want and I blew it. I may never have another lucid dream."

Other member: "You need a lucid dream to get exactly what you want?"

I feel confusion. "A beautiful woman isn't going to walk around the corner to me. Ed Seykota isn't going to teleport into the room and guide me with his wisdom."

Other member: "Is that true? Ed would say you get exactly what you want."

I develop forms and try, while still in trance, to process his words. What do I want? What keeps me from knowing it?

"I'm afraid what I want isn't compatible with being married to my wife," I tell my tribe. My left foot taps while I mention a snapshot I've sketched on my office whiteboard, of my wife, our dog, and I with a small child (we have no children yet) on the lawn of large house. My wife hasn't believed it: she has said the snapshot is what I think she wants to see, not what I really want, and what I really want is to write and sell science fiction novels and get rich trading, with her in third place.

A second tribe member points out, "She saw that and wanted to be married to you anyway." I then feel gratitude and <I don't deserve so much from her> and I resolve to tell her. (I told her this morning I appreciate her and she appeared glad to hear it).

(Between the tribe meeting and now, it occurs to me I may, alternatively or in addition, be afraid that to get what I want, I'll have to tell my wife what it is I want and use Ericksonian wisdom (patience, metaphor, and misdirection) to encourage her to help me with it. (How much more work those steps would take than having people read my mind and willingly give me what I want, which my Medicine Rock tells me is what should happen!) It also occurs to me I may be afraid that what I want really is compatible with being married to my wife, and the subject of occasional daydreams, being a master seducer, a Nerd-Casanova, is not what I want after all).

After the Tribe meeting, I go home and to bed, but wake around 4:00 AM and my half-asleep mind returns to the lucid dream in light of my experience at the tribe meeting. If I have another lucid dream, I'll ask my subconscious to tell me what it wants.

I imagine myself back in the kitchen, in the same circumstances as the lucid dream, and I sense my subconscious in the laundry room. I don't call it Fred (my dead father's name was Fred, and in this moment of writing I realize I have a knot about this point).

I can't see my subconscious straight-on, but from the corner of my eye I glimpse it. At times it looks like a wilder version of me, with messy hair and dirty clothes; at other times, it looks like a more potent version of me, with firmer muscles, better posture, casually sharp clothes, and more charisma. I sit up on the counter and my subconscious stays several steps away.

Let me know what you want, I tell it.

<How do I know you won't entrap me?>

Because we're living in the same brain and body and we're both in a relationship with our wife, our family, our friends, our society. We're better off working together. Besides, if I entrapped you, you'd thrash around and make my life hell.

My subconscious seems more at ease. I now see a jaw trap between me and my subconscious, but then the trap turns into a judge. I can't see the judge closely but it looks like a thin, pale boy of twelve or thirteen in a gray tunic. Then I realize even the judge has a positive intention; it reminds us that our actions have ramifications in our interpersonal relationships and our social standing.

I then become more fully awake, think unproductively about these experiences for a while, and finally fall back asleep.

(A final aside: have you read the novel Queen of Angels by Greg Bear? One subplot involves a virtual reality exploration of a murderer's psyche, manifested as his "Country of the Mind," which, like everyone's, is peopled with a vast number of personas which have their own agendas and are frequently in conflict.

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider taking your feelings of <what I want> to Tribe.

Perhaps worrying about what you want is, well, just exactly what you want.

Getting Your Wife

and Another Woman Together

might be a lot easier

and less risky

in your dreams.

Clip: http://www.robthurman.com/weblog/

archives/menage_a_po.jpg

Thu, 4 Oct 2007

Radial Momentum

see: www.Seykota.com / Radial Momentum

Hi Ed,

How are you my friend. I was promoted to Check Airman where I administer pilot check rides in the simulator.

I agree with your Radial Momentum theory because without angle of attack, the wing would never lift, regardless of curvature.

However, the curvature on top the wing must exist because if it was not there the airflow over the wing would exceed critical mach and the stability would be lost.

Drive 80 MPH and put your hand out the window and rotate the the trailing edge up and down. At some point your hand flies out of control.

Vector analysis and F=ma can explain airplane lift theory better than Bernoulli. However greater speed with constant density does produce lower pressure.
 

The wing curvature provides an internal space for structural reinforcement.  It also helps entrain laminar air flow, thus preventing turbulence drag.

Points to Ponder: Many wings have no curvature and still work. Helicopter blades have equal curvature on top and bottom.  Planes with topside curvature can fly upside-down.

You might consider taking your feelings about <strong and weak trading> to Tribe.

Thu, 4 Oct 2007

Associates Program - Learning To Trade

Ed,

Yesterday, I sell short the Yen. Here are my orders:

GTC Sell Market 1 Contract Dec 07 Yen - fill at 8643.

I do not know what the GTC (good until cancel) instruction on a market order accomplishes.

Entering market orders, after a market is well through a support level, may indicate lack of a plan and lack of back-testing.

A pro-active, think-ahead plan to accomplish the same thing might include placing a sell stop around the 86.80 support area.

You might consider taking your feelings about <trading at the market> and <feeling lucky> to Tribe.

December 2007 Japanese Yen

A stop order triggers a sale

at the moment the market trades

at or through the stop price.

Trading without stops

may indicate lack of planning.

Trading with close stops

may indicate lack of back-testing.

Thu, 4 Oct 2007

Just Saying No


Ed,

Throughout my former marriage my ex-wife made me feel crummy and never acknowledged any of my achievements or unique traits, small or large. I came to resent this and still harbor some feelings of anger with her.

Knowing her history of not keeping her word I was very specific when it came to the divorce parenting agreement.

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider taking your feelings about <quarreling> and <just saying no> to Tribe.

Quarreling

can be part of a process

of conflict resolution.

When the participants'

Rocks compliment,

quarreling can be part

of an ongoing gridlock pattern.

Clip: http://www.jonco48.com/blog/

Thu, 4 Oct 2007

Wed, 3 Oct 2007

Associate Program - Learning to Trade

The Price of Stubborn

see previous:  Measuring Risk

Hi Ed:

I am back from a long walk and thinking about trading, managing risk, and being stubborn. I am not totally aware of the stubborn part until you point it out to me, but thinking back over my life, I seem to wear stubborn as a badge of courage.

I recall being told I am a stubborn child; a stubborn employee; a stubborn lover; and now a stubborn trader. Since I conquer most categories ... ie. I am no longer a child; I serve clients rather than bosses; and I sabotage my love life ... I seem to be now fully concentrating my stubborn nature on trading.

However, I gladly welcome your support and will simply try to be just as stubborn as I possibly can be. Maybe then I will actually feel what it is like to be stubborn, rather than just blindly being stubborn.

In the meantime, I will continue along my stubborn lines and while promising to remain stubborn I will also experiment with what it may feel like to surrender.

To surrender to the events of my childhood ... and learn from them; to surrender to my heart ... and trust that feeling my feelings will lead me out of the dark; and, to surrender to learning to be a better trader. I know it is easy to write these words. I hope you will continue to hold me accountable to living up to them and becoming a better person.

Getting a handle on risk is a huge discovery process for me. It is making me realize that I am trading every day without knowing exactly how much capital I am putting on the line with every trade. I seem to be establishing a pattern.

Since January, I ran my account up over 50% and then went flat by mid-summer only to run my account back up almost 80% until the last few days as I experience about a 15% hit.

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider taking your feelings about <stubborn> to Tribe.

Good Money Metrics

are essential to risk management.

The Utility Function

U(x) = Ax^b

The U(x) graph indicates,

that for some people,

it takes an increasingly large payoff, x,

to increase the utility, U(x), of the payoff.

(A and b are empirical parameters.)

The Utility Function curve reflects

the risk-averse nature of our society

and the possibility of reward

for people who manage risk.

Clips: http://plus.maths.org/latestnews/

may-aug05/millionaire/index.html

Wed, 3 Oct 2007

Thank you for your interest.

Wed, 3 Oct 2007 

Bird Snatcher

Ed,

A seagull in Scotland has developed the habit of stealing chips from a neighborhood shop.

The seagull waits until the shopkeeper isn't looking, and then walks into the store and grabs a snack-size bag of cheese Doritos.

Once outside, the bag gets ripped open and shared by other birds.

The seagull's shoplifting started early this month when he first swooped into the store in Aberdeen , Scotland , and helped himself to a bag of chips. Since then, he's become a regular. He always takes the same type of chips.

Customers have begun paying for the seagull's stolen bags of chips because they think it's so funny.

Clip: http://www.snopes.com/photos/

OK.

Birds who snatch are easy to catch.

Wed, 3 Oct 2007

Associate Program - Learning to Trade

Feelings About Short-Term Trading
 

Here is what happens:

On [date], I hear from Ed that he is going long crude oil. I review the chart and agree that it looks good for a long entry. I get a fill and feel good about being in this position. I watch as the crude prices rise.

On [date] I hear from Ed that Crude and Gold are now being talked about on the front page of the WSJ and that his experience is that this might make for a very choppy market.

I look at the charts and feel some internal conflicts. Crude has risen from 75 to over 80 and I don't see that the trend is over, but I have a very nice profit that I could take now. The other problem I feel I have is that since my account is small I really cannot lighten my position. I am binary - either in or out.

So, wishing to learn from what Ed's experience is, I decide that the best step is to sell. I enter an order to sell at market the 1 Contract of Sept Crude Oil I have. I feel good about being out of the market and having made such a nice profit. I watch as Crude goes down and feel even better about being out of the position.

On Monday Sept 24, I talk with Ed and he says he notices that I am entirely out of my Crude position, and that he just lightened up but did not get out entirely. I feel a little disconcerted and unsure of myself. I am feeling a little left out and I am feeling that I am disappointing Ed by not still being in the position.

Since I am trying to learn from what Ed is doing I decide to get back into Crude. I tell myself since Ed is not entirely out, I should not be out either - even though I had been feeling pretty good about being out. I re-enter the position with a stop about 150 points lower.

I talk with Ed and he says that he notices I have bought back into Crude. I say I thought you were just lightening up and not getting out entirely. He asks what I saw on the charts that told me to get back into crude. I am embarrassed to report that there was nothing in the chart that told me to get back in. I got back in order to belong and to not disappoint Ed.

I then watch the Crude market go against my position and hit my stop to take me out of the position. I feel some relief at being out of the position and having honored my stop loss.

I tell myself that I am still up quite a bit and that I can learn from this. I commit to write up my feelings about this trade, but then put it off for over a week, not wanting to confront the feelings that led me into and out of this trade.

OK.

You might consider taking your feelings of <wanting to please> and <wanting inclusion> to Tribe.

October 2007 Crude Oil

Red circles indicate sales.

The green circle indicate a purchase.

Wed, 3 Oct 2007

Associate Program - Learning to Trade

Missing This and That

Ed,

Thoughts and feelings about stops: After coming within 3 ticks of being stopped out of my short positions in the Dow Jones, I notice feelings relating to that fact.

Feelings of relief and calm. But also noting the difference I would have felt had I been stopped out.

After coming within 3 ticks the market has turned around and dropped by over 100 points. I know I would have missed out on all of this. And I know that my feelings would have been different if I have a stop that is hit versus a stop that is not.

This may seem evident, but I had always thought to myself that a tight stop doesn't make a difference to me, I would just get back in, BUT I can now see that psychologically it is very different for me.

I would not have been likely to get back in. I would have had feelings of relief that I am not in and then watched it come back.

OK.

Tue, 2 Oct 2007

Associate Program - Learning to Trade

Measuring Risk

Wed, 03 Oct 2007

Men and Women

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider taking your feelings about <the kind of relationship I envision> to Tribe.

Lust

has a positive intention.

Clip: http://www.ciadvertising.org/studies/student/

Tue, 2 Oct 2007

Love is Property

see previous

OK.

Love Supports Willingness

to experience the cozy

and the uncomfortable.

Wed, 3 Oct 2007

Typo - 3

see directly below