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(Quotes from Ed in Red)

Tue, 14 Feb 2006

PHGGTTS

PHGGTTS appears to be your slang word for the slang word faggots.

You might consider taking your discomfort about sexual preferences to the hot seat as an entry point.

Woman With Faggot

A faggot is a bundle of sticks, typically for firewood.

One popular urban myth is that the slang term faggot derives from the practice of burning homosexuals at the stake. This is likely incorrect as the historical penalty is hanging, not burning.

More likely, the term evolves from contemptuous slang for woman, with reinforcement by the Yiddish word, faygele, literally, little bird and also British public school slang: fag, noun: a junior who assists a senior and verb: to so assist.

Clip: http://www.kunstkamera.ru/exhibition/

Tue, 14 Feb 2006

Husband and Wife "Should On" Each Other Less

Thank you for sharing your process.

You might consider assembling a Tribe of your own, perhaps comprising other couples.

You Can Sometimes See More Clearly

with your eyelids down.

Clip: http://images.meredith.com/lhj/images/

Mon, 13 Feb 2006

Trading System Design

Dear Mr. Seykota,

I am not a tribe member. I sent you an e-mail on Friday. I would like to ask this:

Would you recommend to attend your seminar based on the following:

You can put together a Trend Following system if you are willing to do so.

The TTP Workshop does not deal directly with trading system design and operation.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006

A Typo

Hi Ed,

I wait for a while but it seems to be always there: an incongruity at http://www.seykota.com/tribe/

TSP/EA/Exponential/index.htm .

Sun, 12 Feb 2006

Sat, 11 Feb 2006

Center for Non-Violent Communication

Ed,

Have you heard of this or seen the website?

Non-Violent communication seems to develop naturally from TTP. 

Fri, 10 Feb 2006

Wants a Meal

Dear Mr. Seykota,


Through various “coincidences” in 1998 I switched jobs and went from selling X’mas trees and construction to clerking on NYMEX and became a hedger for Option guys in all Energies, Cotton, Sugar, Coffee and gold. Back then I knew about you ... and ... the timing was off.

Looking back, I couldn’t have made it due to my unknowingness of myself. I came to the US in 1995 after 2 years of teaching myself English back in [Country]. I spent all my savings on a satellite dish and watched CNN to learn English. I figured that the best test of my English language comprehension would be to work on one of the crazy exchanges I saw on TV.

Back then I didn’t even know what a share was and I thought oil is traded manually in the ports of NY and NJ. [Name] probably the most sophisticated local, who you may know, introduced me to NYMEX back in 1998 after meeting him at a party at his home in NYC.
 

In 2003, after hopefully erroneous conclusion that I couldn’t trade, I temporarily quit, went to Africa to climb Kilimanjaro and moved to [City] to work on myself, which I successfully have!

I even found work at a tax shelter company. We do macro research, publish weekly reports on the world and lately we have been putting on curve trades, which are really some attempts to forecast the future and benefit from it. I do not believe in such approach since it will never work long term and will serve as a vehicle of excitement and boasting in some short term.
 

The reason I am writing to you is that I want to share my experience of getting to know myself and figure out (hopefully with your input) how to start what I had to delay – trend following trading.

I went so as far as visiting my biological father who I had never met before, which was very beneficial. Second I found out that many psychological issues that prevent one from concentration and keeping healthy self-esteem come out during intimate relationships.

I got very lucky to meet a man who explained the fallacy of common way women are looked upon and all the mayhem that stems from it.

After just a month work, I will not look at relationships / women in the same way thus protecting myself from adverse effects of intimate relationships that are detrimental to trading, in my opinion. Yet still enjoying much better new relationships though. You wouldn’t believe the calm that came over me when I came to that realization. Absolute and complete peace I have never felt before.

The very last straw was when I looked around our office and saw all these people researching the prices of fancy homes and cars because they made several thousand dollars trading their prediction of what this and that Central Bank will do. They were lucky and made a little cash. I realized how futile that is, how really idiotic it is to get wrapped up in the barrage of news and people predicting the future, which, of course, doesn’t exist. I agree a 100% with your views on all this, no doubt.

I also realized that through 3 years of work on my psyche and never really thinking about going back to trading, after practicing yoga, calming my mind tremendously through meditation and slowly re-programming my own negative self-talk with simple 3-way mind programming, I have positive feelings about my commitment to trading the markets the right way. Of course, only with the sound money management, discipline and mindset.

The anxiety just vanished. Truly, overriding ones conditioning is an amazing way to improve all aspects of one’s life. The amount of approval I used to seek on the outside was tremendous and unknown to me. The constant insecurity that if I cannot program complex models I cannot be successful trader was ever present.

And then, it was gone. I am still awaking from this magnificent switch.

I found your website and at the same time started to read Trend Following. I already applied the Trend Following Attitude to my greatest hobby – kite boarding, which I practice as often as we have wind. Again, in the past I was doing it for others to approve of me. Now I do it for myself only (I allowed myself to show off when a boat full of ladies goes by though) and the improvements are 20 fold.

See, I could never figure out why with all the discipline in my life I couldn’t be disciplined in managing the mental states absolutely essential for trend trading.

Now I know that that discipline was the problem, ironically. The discipline to do yoga every morning, eating healthy and work out regularly or eating every piece of food on plate for that matter has nothing to do with the discipline needed to follow a trend.

Truly one of the 24 “AHA” moments I have had lately. Discipline to get approval may feel as the good discipline, however the most of that kind of discipline, the worse one gets.

I would like to buy you a breakfast / lunch and / or dinner. I will not ask any questions on any markets. I can just fly over and have a meal with you.

I would be most grateful for your time and advice I am seeking.

[Otherwise] would you, please consider telling me how to start in the TT? I am a bit isolated here ... but I am sure I can learn somehow before I figure out how to attend your workshop.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006

Thank you for the confirmation.

Duplication

is the essence of receiving.

Clip: http://www.accessexcellence.org/

Thu, 9 Feb 2006

Workshop Feedback

Ed,


I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your knowledge on the power of the subconscious mind.

The most valuable learning experience for me relates to the snapshot process. I understand that the energy from my intention is more powerful than any feeling.

This process gave me a much better understanding of how to maintain a successful relationship with my fiancé.

Thank you for sharing your process.

When Your Intention is Engagement

the form of engagement

becomes essential.

Clip: http://www.christophermaxwell.com/

Thu, 9 Feb 2006

Notes on Programming for Worden

Ed,

Worden uses deprecated threading model for their in-proc COM servers.

I don't know how you access Worden data. You might be interested in one of my recent discoveries.

Problem: It takes an hour to extract the data in my new software as opposed to a few minutes with my old software. The new program runs on a machine with a lot less memory. However, performance monitoring shows that the problem is not due to swapping.

Resolution: The aha comes in a trance-like state at the end of a long brisk walk. The classes in the Worden TC200Dev.dll do not register a threading model so they default to the deprecated 'Main' threading model.

http://blogs.msdn.com/oldnewthing/archive/

2004/06/02/146671.aspx

My new program accesses the Worden COM server from a worker thread so that the GUI remains responsive during this long running operation. The result of combining access from a worker thread with Worden's deprecated threading model is cross-thread marshalling of every call and painfully slow execution.

Possible solutions:
1) Run updates in a separate process.
2) Jump through hoops to access it only from the main thread.
3) Get Worden to fix their classes to at least use the Apartment model.

I choose solution 1 for my program. I also intend to notify Worden of the issue.

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Thank you for the programming notes. 

Thank you for noticing the Emersonian Twist.

Some of the Best Code

emanates from trance.

Clip: http://www.wrightair.btinternet.co.uk/

Thu, 9 Feb 2006

Progress Report

Greetings, Chief.

I continue to make excellent progress in system development.

My back-tested average return is now twice the max drawdown, based on a portfolio of all liquid North American and European futures markets. My system becomes simpler and more realistic.

I now find it easier to accept and deal with the frustration, tedium, and programming challenges that accompany system development. I acknowledge the feelings when they occur, pause for a little while when necessary to regroup, and then keep going to attain ever higher levels of performance.

Thank you for sharing your process.

I suspect your breakthroughs occur not when you are willing to experience your frustration.

Keeping an Eye on the World

and Cleaning Up.

Clip: http://www.hispanicbusiness.com/

_client_common/images/news/

Thu, 09 Feb 2006

Systems Model / Responsibility Model

Chief Ed,


I'm asking for detailed clarification regarding the definition of System Model and it's relationship to the Responsibility Model.

I see how System Model (macro) consequence follows logically from validity of Responsibility Model. Can you please:


1) define System Model formally?

2) be specific about relationship with Responsibility Model (if any) ?

3) include discussion / illustration , similar to your detailed reply at:

(Fri, 30 Sep 2005 Responsibility Model) ?



Thanks very much Chief.

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References: ("System Model" citations):

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 Causal Model in Stock Trading

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 What Up With Google

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 Finds Another Form by looking for Opposites. (see graphic caption)

http://www.seykota.com/tribe/Glossary/index.htm

The System Model is the perception that all the elements in a system radiate intention to all the other elements.

The Causal Model is the perception that every event has a cause.

The Causal Model supports the notions of blame and guilt, and by extension understands the Western legal and political systems.

The Responsibility Model supports the empowerment of intention.

In the System Model, we may employ the causal model, to reduce the number of radiating links where some links clearly outweigh  others.  In this way, we might say that in the set {A, B, C, D, E}, where A radiates mostly to B and B collects radiation mostly from A, that A causes B according to some exclusive transfer function.

If we then code all the transfer function links as additions, multiplications and integrations, we can define the system as a set of interrelating integrals and even simulate system behavior numerically with Euler's method.

In this way, we may see that system behavior evolves as all the elements interact and change, and change each other and change their effects on each other.

Thus, in a system, all the elements, and all their evolving interactions are responsible for the overall system behavior. 

To change system behavior, individual elements may effectively change how they react to their senders.  They have no control over how their receivers react to them.

To be more effective in your own system, you can work on how you receive others.  Demanding that others receive you differently is a generally ineffective, although popular, strategy.

In an Ecological System

everything ultimately causes itself.

Wed, 8 Feb 2006

Thank you for the update.

Tribes That Promote Personal Growth

tend to grow.

Clip: http://www.chestnuthomes.co.uk/

Wed, 08 Feb 2006

TTP Poem

Ed,

I have a great hot seat experience two nights ago. The process manager asks me what stands between me and doing what I really want to do, and I am scattered initially. I tell a story, I have fun by becoming a different "character" and sending that to the tribe.

I usually do not send that part of myself to people, and I enjoy doing it on the hot seat. I then enjoy yelling "I'm free!" It is a feeling that I greatly enjoy experiencing and it was in a knot before the hot seat. I send something to you inspired by the hot seat.

accepting the premise
that I am a menace

when I don't choose to feel
what I know I need to heal

conceal the deal
no time to reveal

excuse me friends
while I focus on the end

instead of knowing now

I am free so free
so many feelings of me

Thank you for sharing your process.

The Willingness to Experience Restriction

sets you free.

Wed, 08 Feb 2006

Thank you for sharing your process.

If You Are Unwilling to Experience the Feeling

 of not wanting to continue

you might set up a whirlwind drama

to lose something,

to justify stopping.

If you are willing

to experience the feeling

of wanting to stop,

you might, then, simply stop.

Clip: http://www.thexenascrolls.homestead.com/

Tue, 7 Feb 2006

TSP

Hi,
Just wondering what the status of the TSP section of your site is. It doesn't appear to have been updated since last Fall.

I am currently updating my software from C++ to C# - and adding staff to move TSP forward.

Sometimes a Pause

indicates preparation.

Clip: http://adamkesher.canalblog.com/

Tue, 7 Feb 2006

Trading in the NOW!

Ed,

Ed Says:
Fundamentalists like to analyze past events and
predict the future. Trend Followers react to the ever
evolving moment of now.

I say:

There also exists many Technicians who create
elaborate models to predict the future.

Staying in the now supports all kinds of trading, and all kinds of activity.

Staying in the now is particularly compatible with Trend Following.

When You Willingly Experience

Doing What You are Doing

while you are doing it,

you are living in the now.

http://www.toothpastefordinner.com/

Mon, 6 Feb 2006

Trading Tribe Workshop

Dear Ed,

How are you?

I joined [City] tribe for two weeks. I have some new questions about the TTP. I tried to find the answers by looking back old TTP FAQ posts because I guess other people might have asked the similar questions.

It is not easy to find the particular information which I am interested in. My suggestion is to put a Google search bar on the FAQ web page. So We can do some search on them.

OK, here are my real questions. One question is about the drumming process. I noticed that I could find the main theme of drum beats at the TTP workshop easily.

However, I couldn't find the harmonious experience at my trading tribe. There are several types of drum beats and I tried to follow but they never converge. My feeling after the drumming is a bit uneasy.

You can find a Google Site Search under the Resources link, above.

You might consider taking your uneasy feelings about drumming to the hot seat.

Receiving does not include talking to the sender, or insulting him with words. 

You might consider (1) asking your sender about his intentions and (2) taking your uneasy feelings about the receiver to the hot seat.

If You Feel Uneasy About Something

and don't like the feeling

you likely have a k-not.

If you do like the feeling,

you can employ it's positive intention.

Clip: http://www.goldmansmythe.com/contest.html

Mon, 06 Feb 2006

Verbal Forms
 

Hi Ed,

Thank you for the great site. I’m a member of the [City] Trading Tribe and the other night; we had a person auditing our tribe, who posed a challenge to us while on the hot seat. The person went on the hot seat and got into a form where she slouched in the chair and went numb.

If the sender invokes feelings about the mouth, throat and lips, it may indicate a form.

If the sender goes numb and / or talks about the form rather than displaying it, you may have some evidence of unwillingness to proceed.

You might counter by asking the sender if she is really willing to do the work.  If not, simply acknowledge the unwillingness, check out, and select a new sender.

Acknowledging unwillingness and passing to a more willing sender seems to support all members of the Tribe, including the unwilling sender.

The Mouth Can Express Many Forms

and can also help

conceal others.

Clip: http://news.bbc.co.uk/olmedia/1920000/

Mon, 6 Feb 2006

Spinning Off New Tribes

Ed,

What do you think of the solution I have proposed below for handling new requests now that our tribe is full?

In the Incline Village Trading Tribe, I intend that every member develop the ability to spin off and start his own tribe. 

You might consider making sure you train your members to be excellent process managers before you spin them off.

Going Too Fast

can lead to spin-off problems.

Clip: http://www.robertcomptonpottery.com/

Mon, 6 Feb 2006

IVTT Meeting Feedback -
Dealing with Unwillingness

I take the Hot Seat and say I am frustrated for not generating better forms. I read about breakthrough after breakthrough on the FAQ's. I feel both envy and incompetence for not “producing” better myself.

The very experienced process manager questions my willingness – I nod and state that I am willing. He asks leading questions to assist me get into my feelings. When he asks me the questions, I know the “feeling” I am “supposed” to feel, but I do a good job of keeping the feeling held down.

I think of the feeling, but it does not produce a feeling in my stomach, shoulder, or right leg. We go back and forth a couple of times; the process manager asks if I am willing, I say yes, but I do not get into any forms.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Frequent willingness testing helps keep the process on track.  TTP does not cure unwillingness - it does assist people who are willing to untie k-nots.

A Tribe that persists in pushing an unwilling sender is engaging some or another drama, typically around stubbornness / authority issues.

TTP Helps Move People

from II to I

and from I to the Zero Point

TTP does not intend to move people

from III or IV.

Clip: http://www.lorober.com/Favorites/

 Mon, 6 Feb 2006

Anxiety

Hi Ed,

Thank you for sharing your process.

When We Have Anxiety in a K-not

we do whatever we have to do

to experience it.

Clip: http://archerpelican.typepad.com/photos/

Mon, 6 Feb 2006  

General Formula

My general formula for my students is:

Follow your bliss. Find where it is,

and don't be afraid to follow it.

When you separate experience into bliss and non-bliss, you may invoke an implicit judgment about the non-bliss ones. 

In TTP we notice such judgments support k-nots.

Happy Dogs Don't Search for Bliss

they bring their own along

with them where ever they go.

Clip: http://hazyland.homepage.dk/

Sun, 5 Feb 2006

Enjoying Anger and Getting Free

Dear Chief

I write to say thank you again for TTP and because my experience may be helpful to others.

TTP makes an ever growing difference in my life - often with results that surprise me. I work on many issues at tribe meetings and at your seminars this last year. I feel that with each "Hot Seat" I reach deeper "Knots" that control my life. These Knots are so obvious - but only after I find them.

In a recent Hot Seat I deal with my "hidden" anger. I recall never being able to express my anger or even really acknowledging it. I cry or run away from any upsetting situation until I can "control" my feelings. As a result I am easy to manipulate and I play the victim role in all areas of my life very well.

I also now recognize this behavior as a way of blocking real intimacy with someone as well.

This recent hot seat is so far the most life changing experience I have. At the Tribe meeting I am finally willing to deal with being angry and not doing anything about it.

I start by telling the tribe about a work situation that I am angry about and almost immediately begin to choke up and then cry. I progress though various forms and I do recall sitting on the floor, wadding up napkins and throwing them in a box with gusto.

I recall this eventually feeling pretty good and laughing. But we are not done. The Process Manager continues to probe and we discover "The Judge" in my throat - deep and well entrenched. I recall doing some yelling, stomping, pounding and more yelling and at some point reach a great release.

I am fuzzy on the the details and recall only a sense of extreme exhaustion. At checkout however, I remember hearing my mother's voice sometime during the process - "proper ladies do not say things that might hurt people or make them angry - they won't like you." Well evidently this created judge in my throat prevents me for many years from saying anything about my own feelings, even when I feel angry, in fear of offending the other person or being rejected.

Well, the test comes. Two days after the Hot Seat work I have an experience with someone I like. In his actions this day I feel slighted and unimportant. At first mild annoyance and then I am angry. Before this hot seat I know the feeling of anger would have stayed bottled up - fear of rejection (especially strong with someone I care for) - but not this time. I recall allowing myself to feel the anger and then to say exactly how I feel.

I do not cry. I am new at this. I feel surprise. I feel strange and I do wonder if he is getting annoyed. I recognize that it is okay if he is. I do thank the person for receiving my anger. We hug goodbye. I feel light. I experience an acknowledgment of self. I understand more about my own desires and boundaries. I have more to learn.

I recognize this week that my interactions with all my friends are now more open and honest. The communication is more intimate as I can express how I feel about a variety of things ( joy, sadness, anger).

It opens the door if they want to share their feelings with me - and some do. I now feel even closer to my friends as I can really relax and just be me. I can also express what I want and need from them.

So for me the surprise - what starts as a hot seat about anger is evolving to much more - it is about being willing and able to express and share all my feelings. No judgment about good and bad.

I am not being mean or hurtful in sharing my feelings. I can do so calmly now. No embarrassment. No fear about rejection. What a great relief. It is about me sharing me with others. I am open and honest, I also do a better job of supporting my friends.

I believe this aha for me is on the critical path of intimacy I want in a personal relationship and in life in general. I may be just at the beginning.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Expressing Anger Willingly

lets everyone know your boundaries

and typically eliminates the need

to act out violently.

Sun, 5 Feb 2006

Noticing Positive Intentions

Thank you for sharing your process.

The Act of Noticing

can precipitate AHA's in any surrounding.

Clip: http://img.periskop.cz/media/

Sun, 5 Feb 2006

European Workshop

Sat, 4 Feb 2006

PM Takes Hot Seat

After working conducting process management on several senders with similar issues, I take the hot seat with the same issue and find the experience of doing the work myself substantively different.

Sat, 4 Feb 2006

Sat, 4 Feb 2006

Speed Rounds

I notice on FAQ, Ed a description of the IV-TT
Rapid Snapshot pre-TTP process, and that it is now
even more intense with multiple short rounds, as
against the single "longer" round from my visit there.

We are now doing Snapshot Speed Rounds for critical feedback , about 1-minute per person so we can complete presentations by N members in about N² minutes.  A group of 8 takes about 64 minutes or about an hour.  A group of 12 takes about 144 minutes or about two and a half hours.

Following the critical feedback we finish with a Champion Round in which each member presents each other snapshot as its champion.

While testing out his new cereal mix on his horse,

Dave gets some feed back.

Clip: http://www.nevtron.si/borderline/feedback.gif

Sat, 4 Feb 2006

Father and Son

Dear chief,

TTP and Breathwork is the way to go.

In the last tribe meeting I work on an issue which I have with my son and I have a tremendous experience in today's Breathwork session.

The issue with my son is that I check his homework for errors. I find one or some and my son shows me anger. I believe his anger is about me, so this causes drama. In the hot seat I experience I have different forms and experience a judge. After honoring the judge and experiencing the original form I get to the zero point. I know these dramas are not necessary anymore because the anger is not about me , it is about himself !!!

I think because of this TTP issue (father son) I think about my father and my ancestors and this leads in today's Breathwork session, which lasts about one 1 hour, to a lot of pain and tremendous forms (crying and shouting) and a relieving AHA.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Father and Son

may create create for each other

many opportunities to grow

as they age

and eventually trade roles.

Clip: http://web.mit.edu/adorai/www/

Sat, 4 Feb 2006

Tribe Meeting

Tribe tonight was less dramatic and more serious
work reflecting a different Process Manager's influence.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Yes, Fred keeps trying to get us to experience our feelings.  When we do so willingly, we gain wisdom and grow.  Otherwise we drift off into drama.

When we learn to experience the feelings of others without becoming passive or defensive

we provide the environment in which  intimacy can grow.

Carrot Egg and Coffee

All three deal with hot water differently ...

The carrot goes limp and weak,

the egg gets an even harder shell

while the coffee

joins with and transforms the water.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006

FEP

I am unable to tell who is advising you.  Please re-write (I was advised ...) in SVO-p.

You might consider (1) visiting the site,

http://education.ucsb.edu/people/beutler.html

Fri, 03 Feb 2006

Professionals Respond to TTP

Hello Ed,

I have talked with a number of professionals in the Mental Health field about the theory and success of TTP. Here are a few of the responses I have received thus far:

A.

It's unsafe to take emotionally unstable, and potentially volatile clients there. We cannot defend a program that creates inherent safety risks. Our job is to encourage clients to express themselves in a controlled and contained environment where safety risks are minimized.


B.

The employees (inside and outside of the room) would be afraid of the clients if we allowed them to unleash their emotions in the manner you describe.

C.

You would need people with advanced degrees to do that kind of work (PhD's and Psychiatrists).

D.

It's been tried and proven unsuccessful. Encouraging people to actually get into their emotions in the way you describe has been proven to promote further emotional dysfunction.

My favorite response....
 

Professionals A and B might consider taking their feelings of fear to the hot seat.

Professional C might take his feelings about wanting to be smart to the hot seat.

Professional D might consider re-phrasing in SVO-p so we could tell who is doing the proving - and under what conditions.

Professional E is likely unaware of the nature of TTP. TTP conflicts with some of the basic rules of Psychotherapy:

 

 

Sometimes a Smile and a Hug

Does More

 

than 50 minutes of analysis.

 

Clip: http://www.bartow.k12.ga.us/psych/

Fri, 03 Feb 2006

OK.

Sometimes People Appear

to kill themselves.

http://www.buriedaliveillustrations.com/

Fri, 3 Feb 2006

Scary

I'm gonna run around the streets and scare people with this one

I wonder if the scary part is the chart or you running around the streets.

The Market Can be a Scary Place

especially when Bulls and Bears

start trading Cats and Dogs.

Note: If you don't have 9 lives to spare,

employ risk control.

Clip: http://sb.typepad.com/watermark/

Fri, 3 Feb 2006

Workshop in Germany

Hi Ed,

I follow your work for a long time and would enjoy a workshop in Germany.

Thu, 2 Feb 2006

New Tribe - First Meeting

Ed,

[Our] tribe had its first meeting yesterday and it went very well. There are 6 members and they all seem to be enthusiastic about the process after only one hot seat. I think this is a good illustration of the Under-Fred Network connecting people who are ready and willing to get to work.

If you would like a receipt, other than your own check, send me an email, with the exact receipt you want, and your address, so I can mail it back to you.

A New Tribe Meeting

is a lot like a Jam Session

It takes a couple of people

to get one going

and then everyone seems to falls in.

Clip: http://www.larryunger.net/bands/

Wed, 1 Feb 2006

Worry

Ed Says: "I am feeling relief about getting some help with all my projects and also a little apprehensive about starting new relationships."

Ed, I read this report about your snapshot and it rings a bell for me. I usually feel apprehensive about relationships that don't work at all.

Thank you for sharing your process.

The Positive Intention of Worry

is to make sure things go well

Worry in a K-not

leads to drama in which

things do not go well.

Clip: http://www.balancedweightmanagement.com/

Worry.gif

Wed, 1 Feb 2006

TSP

Wed, 1 Feb 2006

Fear of Re-Entry

My issue at the Reno seminar -- fear of re-entry.

Today ICE is the strongest position on my watch list at open.

I re-enter (after whipsawing out day before yesterday.
Entry at $52.80 at 5 minute high. Close at 55.63.

I've got a whip, and you've got a saw!

Thank you for sharing your process.

Getting Back in

is an essential part of Trend Following

Wed, 1 Feb 2006

Judging Judgment

Dear Ed,

I thank you for your acknowledgement of my process and I have absorbed what I consider to be your gentle prodding referred to in your statement about willingness. I have to say that I think your “meshing” of the two words “willing” and “will” is one of the most beautiful and insightful creations in your book. I am writing now to share more of my process and to ask a question.

Just half an hour ago I witnessed a wanton act of cruelty to an animal. I’ll spare the details. Seeing this ENRAGED me, and my immediate response was to go into “TTP mode.”

Instead of allowing my rage to immediately call forth a judgment I instead encouraged myself to feel the rage (I need to add here that only by reading your book could I really understand the subtle “trick” to this — the difference between feeling my feelings, whatever they were, and indulging in feeling rage PLUS judgment).

My rage was nothing small, it was WILD RAGE, and I tried to INCREASE it, and it evaporated almost immediately into a very powerful AHA experience for me, which I will now describe.

I see a major k-not for me (maybe the KING of all my k-nots!) relates to my younger days when my Dad took me hunting. I wish I could describe it as vividly as I feel it, but suffice it to say t